dont be scared

"Heaven is beautiful, Earth is ugly,"
The three-dimensioned preacher saith;
So we must not look where the snail and the slug lie
For Psyche's birth. . . . And that is our death!

The Last Ode

As WATCHERS couched beneath a Bantine oak,
Hearing the dawn-wind stir,
Know that the present strength of night is broke
Though no dawn threaten her
Till dawn's appointed hour--so Virgil died,
Aware of change at hand, and prophesied

Change upon all the Eternal Gods had made
And on the Gods alike--
Fated as dawn but, as the dawn, delayed
Till the just hour should strike--

A Star new-risen above the living and dead;
And the lost shades that were our loves restored
As lovers, and for ever. So he said;
Having received the word...

Maecenas waits me on the Esquiline:
Thither to-night go I....
And shall this dawn restore us, Virgil mine
To dawn? Beneath what sky?



Nov. 27, 8 B.C.
Horace, BK. V. Ode 31
"The Eye of Allah"
"From "Debits and Credits"(1919-1923

never been loved

god forgive
i still think of you
how could you punish me like this
dont you even want to know
the way i have become
after you left me

hmmm.......my last action dad

i was watching some cop chase bad guy movie today,you know the type,well not really watching but my dad was actually,i simply seemed to pass by and saw this scene where wisley snipes attaches himself to a cable and jumps of the roof,and the whole time the cop is with his gun and i am like shoot the fucker, shoot the fucker you dud,but its a goddamn movie dont forget well yes getting back to it he lands on the roof and starts running on the roof and goddamn jumps of it on to a moving train and lo! the great escape,hail!
dont ask me what the whole goddam point is ,i dont know,
fuck havent studied the whole dam day today,fuck that i havent been in a relationship ,
and yea i wish i could be like my dad and not be like him too....
god dam i am not even.00000001% of what my dad is,i feel sad for him
that a man of his calibre never really wanted to make it big,even
when he had all the chances,but he still will be my action hero,