fridget leaves

a refugee with no liking.
lets go outside,its cold in here.
what i see,is not what i eat,cream.
been negligent and the forsaken cause,if i knew why?
watch the lights glaze past me or rather through me,
a skeletal body with a degenerating cortex and a vanishing heart,
pardon me for being definite,for it is what i feel,
its not an ardent want,but a life ending desire and a knowing satisfaction.